sigh..
you're coming out later.
i really wish to see you,
real badly.
but at the same time i'm wondering,
wondering how you feel.
will you think of me?
will you give me a call if i'm not there later?
will you wants to see me?
it's all going round and round in my mind now.
i'm dying to see you.
really do.
but...
i've been waiting for today.
now that it's here,
i'm starting to feel afraid.
what am i suppose to do?
teach me,
some one teach me please.
teach me how to not think of you?
can?
FUCK MY LIFE, seriously
7th June,
you said you'll be meeting me at 3.
but you ended up there.
fucking upset.
cried the shit outta me,
no one knows.
i don't want to be a burden to anyone.
i fucking miss you.
up till now,
there's nothing negative about you.
everything seems so perfectly perfect to me,
the way you treated me,
was something that no one did before.
the way you try to give me everything i asked from you.
even small things like places which i wants to visit,
little things i wanted,
you remembered.
no one let me felt that i'm actually something to him.
i know it's my fault if everything ended.
it's making me regret a fucking life time.
i fucking hate myself.
it's unforgivable,
i know.
but is it forgettable ?
you told me i cant be without you.
yes, true enough.
i guess it's true.
i find myself fucking lifeless.
lack of motivation
i miss you badly
sigh..
it should be the 5th month 3days ago.
ya,
5th month
it's not very long together,
it's the heart that matters.
i really wish you don't change.
is your love still here with me?
am i still inside you?
you're still here,
i love you...
Sorry
28th Jan 2011
LoveFrancis<3
So Sorry That I Loved You,
Sorry That I Needed You,
Sorry That i Held You Tight.
sigh...
why change?!
2weeks,6days more
i fucking miss you :(
glad to hear from them that you're fine
TIME PASS FAST PLEASE!
i want to see you fucking badly
hope i get to see you soon,
even if it's not face to face
i miss you:'(
2weeks6days, 20days, 480hours to go...
take good care ok?
:'(
I LOVE YOU<3
18 more days:(
i'm already missing you so much now.
i want to see you ASAP!! :(
i'll be waiting for you here,
take good care of yourself ok?
I LOVE YOU <3
i know you're gone.forever.i'm sorry for what i did,and causes this.i'm not blaming you at all.i blame myself.must take good care of yourself.must eat and sleep more,ok?there's nothing i can say now,no matter what, i'll still be here for you,if only you need me.i miss you alot;(real lot ;(i know my attitude sucks like fuck at times,i'm sorry.i'm letting you go this time,but i'm not letting you out,outta my heart.i miss your morning text, goodnight msges and everything about you.i can't be pestering you,texting you when i know you're not gonna reply me,calling you when you don't expect one.i'm controlling,controlling real hard to not do so.i dont know what you feel,hope you'll still think of me at times :)and your words really hurts,but i know it's my fault.Thanks for trying to give whatever i asked for,i'm sorry that i love you.28thJan2011 <3No matter how much I love you But I know that you probably won't be interested in me,
But I still kept fantasizing away.
and still secretly hoping inside my mind that one day you will have me.
But I know it's impossible when you think that I'm not the one, it's okay,
I just hope that you'll stay in my heart continuously for a longer time.
Feeling fucking down now:(
I think my time's up,
I think there's no longer me in you anymore.
I should just fuck myself off?
But I doesn't want to.
This short period of time tgt with you,
You taught me what's love.
I no longer needs to bare with pain,
No longer need to bare with violent.
No longer like a sandbag/ punchingbag.
I really don't wish to...
But what else can I do?
Even though your word hurts a lot,
I don't hate u.
Ytd was the first time you got pissed off by me,
And shouted:(
I'm sorry.
You're right,
I caused this.
But I doesn't wants it.
I love you:'(
I know you purposely ignores my text.
I don't know what I could do or even say.
I fucking hate myself,
I fucking regret trusting someone that's not truthful,
I regretted, FUCKING REGRET.
I hate him, I hate myself more!
I really hate this.
Why is it always me?
Unlike others,
I guess I'm not born to be loved.
What's happening?
You don't know how much you meant to me.
I know I meant nothing.
Takecare, ILOVEYOU, FRANCIS TAN<3
Hello:)
I'm kinda bored now:(
Babytan's asleep already.
He's going to his court tomorrow at 0930.
:(
Wish everything turns out well,
And fine too.
I started missing him already:(
even though I'm at his place 24hrs ago. :x
I know its kind of weird with me talking about babytan in the post
While my link was some asshole's name.
But nvm, its ok. :)
I'll get rid of it soon.
Haha!!
I love babytan ttm! <3
I guess I shall stop here and get to bed soon.
Waking up later to wait for baby's call:)
Goodnight!